I have been meaning to post for a few weeks, but work, mental health and physical health have all sucked so I guess now the reason I am posting is because of a dream. Yesterday we bought a new Subaru Forester for the hubby so we didn’t have to rely on his Kia not getting stolen (its one of those that can be broken into easily) and we don’t have to rely on my car which mechanically was just starting to fall apart, I hope to post about that actually later today.
However, it was a stressful event so by 6pm I kept falling asleep and had a horrendous set of nightmares on and off when I did fall back to sleep until I finally got up at 2am. My watch says I got 4 hours sleep in that whole time, I feel like less, but it was the same dream, just continuing the whole time. Below is not the complete dream, most of the individual little things that were horrifyingly banal are already slipping my mind, so here is just the general beats.
START DREAM
The dream was in vignettes and started with the hubby and I coming across a dark roiling cloud like thing on the ground, being near it didn’t seem to cause any problems, but you could feel something in the air had changed, something bad had happened.
I couldn’t tell if it was the atmosphere had a hole poked in it right there and it was leaking the earth’s atmosphere, there was no suction, no rush of air, so while that was the closest fear a lot of people in the dream had, it felt more like a swirling thing that was maybe corrupting things, sort of like the swirling blackness from the old movie with Donald Pleasance and Alice Cooper, “The Prince of Darkness”.
Flash forward to another vignette and the world was dark, almost like the whole nuclear winter thing except it wasn’t freezing, it was just dark and everything living was dead and barren, and society/cities/government had collapsed. However it had only been a few days, it was more like the world was transformed and not decayed.
Meanwhile most people were already dead or dying, as if the eternal night that was happening was sucking the life from them (maybe Ravensloft style?). The hubby and I were traveling, but it still wasn’t far from where we live. There was some sort of quick rush by humans, seemed like an attempt to “save the world” a very movie like feeling when the exciting climax was going to save us all.
Except it didn’t.
After what felt like the climax failed, there were several small vignettes of seeing things and people that made the world seem to age and fall apart, even though in the dream it was only a few days. The entire time there was a globe we kept looking at (one of those standing world globes) and it had some feature that would show the area of the world still getting daylight, and it was shrinking to a strip around the globe that for me was closes south of Portland. It wasn’t like the sun itself was restricted due to a nuclear winter, rather it was more like marking the strip of the globe still habitable (?), or wasn’t corrupted evil.
The final vignette was sadder and much more low-key horrifying. The world was getting darker and more desolate (but not ice age cold with the no sun), and my hubby wasn’t in the last vignette. I just remember being sad when I thought about him. I had been traveling for a bit with a younger blond girl (younger for me is probably early 30s) when we came across someone dying, and they just had this clear liquid coming out of their mouths as if they had drowned (no water was around).
We saw the strip on the globe had shrunk into very tiny line across the world of what seemed like there could still be light, we were in that strip though and no daylight so obviously we figured out it was measuring something else.
A little time flickered ahead in the dream and I came across that blond woman I had been traveling with. At some point she had raced ahead of me into a building. She was lying there, no physical damage on her body and she was scared. I was consoling her until she passed, with a bunch of clear liquid coming out of her mouth right after she died. There were no obvious wounds, and she was in far better shape than this old girl, so it just made it obvious whatever was happening didn’t care about the health of the individual.
The small group I was with looked at the globe we were carrying in the night, the strip of light was completely gone on the globe and we just looked at each other. We knew it was over, no heroes were saving anyone and all I could do was miss my husband, and my family that had already passed before all of this, and wonder if it was going to hurt. The worst part is I knew the world was dead, and I was just sad at the loss of everything about humans, all because something stupid happened that none of us knew about, but we could feel it.
STOP DREAM
I woke and sat up, and for whatever reason was sad, and just sobbed for a while. Tally came over and laid against me until I got up. I wish I could remember more of the details, that always feels important but I can never quite do it. I will remember bits of it later, but even now it’s more unclear, so I will leave this dream recounting where we stand.
Tales From The Little Blue House 